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right now i am wishing i could know more about my future. maybe not everything that is going to happen but just some select things. like... are chi and i supposed to be together are we going to make it? i know there are some who would say no you are foolish to this question. but, it is possible and i would just like to know. we are kind of at a point now where it has to move in a new direction. a year isn't a really long time but if we wait another year then we will be about 6 months from graduating. if you are in a two and a half year long relationhsip when you graduate and move into the big world that relationship needs to be taken into account. it's hard to think about my future when i don't know who or what is going to be a part of it. the second thing i would like to know is what my job prospects will look like. will i get lots of offers? i would like to think so, but who knows what will happen in the next year or so. these are probably the two biggest parts of my future: my career and my life partner. if i could get those two things figured out i could handle the minor details. too bad life has to be so unpredictable, where is the excitement in that?