The Countdown Continues

I have officially 22.5 days left of work as of 12:30 today. I am excited and depressed at the same time. While I am almost finished I still have a whole month left. Will the boredom never end? I have been succesfull in my exercising regularly. I have seen some muscle improvements and have toned up, however, I haven't seen the weight loss I would have liked. Oh well one month left. I want a flat hard stomach before I get back to school.
Genny got engaged. Yippee. I have my own feelings about this, some have to do with jealousy, some with personal confusion, and some with things that are better left unsaid in a permanent space out there for anyone to find.
I saw this thing on another blog: 10 things I would like to say to others that I never would. I have been thinking of my own 10 things. I have come up with a few, but I dont want to get myself in trouble. And though I wouldnt tell you who these things are to be directed to, you would all know most likely.

swimsuit season is coming

i started exercising last sunday, and have done a really good job of it since. i have managed to get in one form or another of exercise every day this week. i have also been eating healthier. my goal is to keep this up for the rest of the summer. hopefully the results will be so great i wont be able to stop when school starts.

GAS SUCKS

So apparently gas in Venezuela is only $0.12 per gallon. I say we all move to Venezuela! The government is proposing a $100 refund to drivers. This sounds nice, who doesn't want $100? My question is who are these "drivers" that are going to be getting this check? I have a strange feeling I probably do not qualify as a "driver". I should, I drive all the time.

I DONT WANT TO WORK ANYMORE

GEEZ I HATE IT!

love and marriage

so my ex is engaged. i havent talked to him for awhile and he was online tonight. he has been house hunting and wedding dress shopping with his fiance. this may be wrong or stupid but i am jealous. first of all he basically took our relationship and just continued on with another girl in replace of me. its like us breaking up never really happened. all of our plans are still going according to plan, just with someone else. while i am glad its not me, i just think it is so dumb. i feel like he is making a huge mistake, and i feel semi guilty. its rediculous if you ask me.

sick again

i am never going to feel better, as soon as i start feeling healthy i get sick again. this sucks. i am watching crossing jordan and there is a blonde girl that looks like shannon from lost (maggie grace). i googled it though and i cant find her so i guess it is a different girl. but damn it looks like the same person.

3 months of work left. 3 months.

California Dreaming

So I had a dream that I was in a hurricane last night. This is my second hurricane dream in the past month or so. I hate hurricanes. The night before that I had a dream that I not only had to be nice to Chi's Stephanie but I also had to be friends with her. That bitch!
I am at work again doing nothing. I was here last night forever and will be here tonight forever and tomorrow night forever. I think I got max five hours of sleep last night, and now have a 12-14 hour day to work. Well at this point I only have 5 and a half hours left. I am exhausted. Tomorrow will probably be another 12+ hour day. I better get tons of overtime pay. I could fall asleep and no one would know. I am not even doing anything. I should just walk back to the hotel and go to bed. Tomorrow I am sleeping in damnit.
I am afraid I am going to be sick for this weekend, and Chi's birthday bbq. That would suck. I think if I have a late night tomorrow I may see if John minds driving my car down to Rolla so I can sleep for the drive. We will see what the rest of the week holds. At least it is almost thursday!

Minnesota Update Go!

I stole the title idea from Brien. Thank you Brien.

Alright so right now I am sitting in a Malthouse in Moorhead Minnesota. Not a farm thank you very much genious boyfriend. :) We are here to do sampling of the malt as it dries in the kilns and then using that data we are going to produce new moisture drying curves for them to use to run their system off of. They think that the curves they have right now are not accurate. When I say we are here doing this I really mean Paul is here doing this with a vendor and I am pretty much just supporting the work. Basically, I am sitting around keeping myself somewhat busy. Every hour when they get a new sample I have to log some data. I could actually go pull the samples and I may have to later. But as of right now they haven't asked me if I wanted to, and I haven't volunteered. When you go take a sample you have to walk out on top of the grain to the middle of the grain bed. The whole time grain dust and sulfur dioxide is blowing everywhere and it is about 170 degrees out there. So if you were wondering why I haven't volunteered, hopefully now you understand.
Anyway, it is interesting to be somewhere different. This place is totally different then the breweries. On top of that I am getting to see the work that is done before the brewing process ever even begins. So, basically I know have a complete picture of what is required to make beer. I guess the only step missing is the actual growing of the barley. If I were to see that done then I would definitely have to visit a farm. I don't believe that is on my coop agenda though so there are probably no Canadian barley farms in my future. I am ok with that. I have seen farms. My grandpa is a farmer. I doubt barley farms are much different then corn and soybean farms.

On a non work related note ... today is Chi's birthday. Everyone tell him happy birthday! He is now an old man. The big 23. That is old if you ask me. I love birthdays. I wish I could be in Rolla to help him celebrate, but at least I will get to go down this weekend. We are having a barbecue on Saturday from 11-4 at Lion's park so everyone better be there!
Nothing else is too new. I guess one important thing is I found out my placement for RA next year. I will be the super awesome RA of the first floor of the RC. My floor is named "the resort" and I plan to use that theme to the fullest. I may even use Kelly's tiki head if I can get permission. So yay, that will be fun. I can't wait until August.
I am now over halfway done with my coop. Let me just say that it will not end soon enough.

Ok good bye.

Hating

I dont hate people. I dislike some, but no hating. Not often anyway. Unfotunately, there is one person I hate. This is a person I have never met. I am sure she is really nice, maybe we would even get along really well. It doesn't matter though. I hate her. I think it is better to hate one person you don't know then lots of people you do. I dont think it makes me a bad person.
On another less depressing note, I am going to be in Minnesota all week. Interesting, probably not too much. I am now on the final months of my coop. 3 months and 1 week to go. It will not end soon enough.

what to do when your mom misbehaves

Just thought you should know. Knowledge is power.

hurricanes suck

I have decided that hurricanes are like tornadoes except with water added to them. I hate tornadoes so I am positive I would hate hurricanes. I don't know which would be worse: a hurricane or a tsunami. I don't ever want to drown. I would prefer to die of natural causes but the worse would be drowning.

I am feeling better however, my head feels to small for my brain. That is really the only problem I have left. Maybe I am getting smarter. I don't want to be smarter if it means constant pain and pressure in my head. I would only take that if I was a whole lot smarter. If I get all A's next semester I will know it is worth it.

If I could have one wish it would be for enough money I would never have to work again.

...and that is all for now.

feeling of the day: slightly annoyed

lost was good tonight, not one of the best, but not as lame as some of the episodes have been
next week looks awesome

hopefully this will be my last drug induced night of sleep, i am planning on going pill free tomorrow if i can make it
i am feeling mostly better, i just decided the nyquil would be a good safety precaution in case i start feeling shitty in the middle of the night

my family is coming down to the city and taking me out to lunch tommorow, yum, yum. i am going to order lots of food so i have dinner to

i wish i had thought of post secret first. if you havent seen it yet here is a link:
http://postsecret.blogspot.com/
enjoy!

my spring break this year consists of taking off three hours early next friday - yippee, and on top of all that i am taking off to go to springfield, not my ideal destination because it always ends up being an expensive somewhat unsatisfying trip. it isnt so much unsatisfying as the cost to satisfaction ratio is not very high. if that makes any sense.

lastly, a new discovery of the day: U2 has a song called "Tryin' to throw your arms around the world" a line in it is - she needs a man like a fish needs a bicycle
i like that quote. i googled it today as entertainment on my lunch break. that is how i found the song. i found out more but it probably wouldnt be that interesting to anyone else. one last fact i will share is that it stems from an old quote from some guy which is as follows: "man needs religion like a fish needs a bicycle" i like the women need a man line better

my cat is trying to eat my chair. little bitch

ok drug induced coma time

good night

I am sick ... Feel sorry for me Damn It!

I have been sick since sunday. I blame chi. He gave it to me. The only way to work is to pop pills like crazy so when I am not feeling incredibly blah, I am feeling incredibly loopy. This makes for hours of nervous energy followed by dozing off whenever the pills wear off. All in all these are some very interesting work habits. I just try not to get caught sleeping. In fact I was so drowsy this morning I went into the bathroom stall and laid my head against the wall. I was probably in there for a good ten minutes. Someone came in though, so that woke me up and I decided it was best to leave. Yesterday was worse, I took a bunch of pills on an empty stomach because I couldn't handle the pain and I ended up spending the first half of my morning in the bathroom. This time not to sleep but because I felt like I was going to throw up. I didn't but I still felt gross. So now it is almost 8 o'clock. I have been laying in bed for about an hour. I could have taken some nyquil and fallen asleep an hour ago, but the nyquil only lasts six hours and I don't feel like waking up at 1 and feeling miserable. That sucks because you can only take another one if you are going to be able to sleep another six hours. It would be nice if at 1 in the morning I had another full six hours of sleep ahead of me but I don't. Too bad really. This is the first time I have ever been sick and had to take care of myself. I am used to having my mom, or my roomate, or my boyfriend around for compassion and help. But these past two days I have had to force myself to get up from my after work nap and eat, not because I was hungry, but because I knew I would feel sick from medicine if I didn't. So this sucks because the one thing I enjoy about being sick is being pampered and taken care of. So the least I can ask of the rest of the healthy world is to feel sorry for me. Yes, it will help.

I may have sold my soul.

So next semester against warnings from John, I am going to be an RA. I got my acceptance letter today. So free room and board, yay! Besides the obvious perks I am looking forward to it. I think it will be a good experience. Hopefully it will help me be a little more independent when I get back. Chi is getting used to all this alone time, only having to see me on weekends. When I get back he will get sick of me fast. So, maybe this will occupy some of my free time. Unless, I hate it. If that happens next year will suck.

My cat is pretty. Now I know I have to get rid of her come August. I was anticipating it when I got her, but it still makes me sad.

On another note it is supposed to storm tonight and I hate storms. I am alone in a third story apartment with no basement. That really freaks me out.

Celebrity Sighting

L.A. may be my new favorite place. Everything is so glamourous and beautiful. Not to mention there are palm trees and mountains. I hear there is even a beach somewhere around here. What more could you want? So this is the best business trip thus far. Ok the work sucks. But everything else is great. My hotel room consisted of one wall made entirely of windows. I could see most of the city. Last night we went to a very upscale italian restaurant. Our meal for seven people cost $417. WTF? Who pays that much for food, it was good but not $400 good. Anyway, sitting at a table next to us was Eric McCormack more commonly known as Will from Will and Grace. Since it was such a nice restaurant I didn't ask for a picture. But I wanted to because how cool is that? Also, at another table near us was a women that everyone decided they had seen in some movies but none of us could figure out who it was. She was there with a very well dressed but ugly man. Our first day here we went to Universal City it is right next to Universal Studios it is a big outdoor shopping and eating area. It was really neat. We were going to go to Universal Studios also, the guy at the hotel said that after 2 it was half price. He was wrong. So we didn't end up going. Thank goodness no one wanted to pay $60 for 4 hours of a theme park. I would not have been happy paying that at all. I will try and post some pictures soon.

torture

why do i torture myself with the past. especially when it is not my own.
on another note, i have been watching lots of sex and the city. i do not want to be single in my thirties, i really don't want to be very single in my twenties. while the show is good, the lifestyle would be depressing. in many ways their lives are very glamourous. they have lots of excitement. i am kind of bored.

I can never think of titles.

So, I haven't updated in a while. I believe that is because nothing terribly exciting has happened at all. This will be my first weekend staying in STL since the end of Jan. I am kind of looking forward to a relaxing weekend. Work is going pretty well. I am getting a good amount of work, not so much that I am overwhelmed. But enough to keep me relatively busy. Some of the coops have crazy amounts of work and work lots of overtime. While overtime would be nice I like to sleep and have some time to relax. On another note I made a friend sorta. One of the coops that happens to go to Rolla. We have befriended one another because we are ... well, different. Differend from the other coops that is. They like to go out and party and drive home drunk and act crazy. And while I enjoy a good drunken experience now and then, I don't enjoy it all weekend and the occasional Tuesday. And like me Felicia thinks they are all pretty rediculous too. On top of that she is not 21 so she really can not partake in the drunk fests. So during what will be only my 3rd weekend at home since I started the coop she, John, and I are hanging out this weekend. We are going to have a mild evening of drinking tomorow night. We made Jell-O shots tonight for tomorrow. We are meeting at my apartment after work and either going out to dinner or making dinner and then we are going to come back here and hang out and drink and just all enjoy ourselves. Saturday Chi is coming down to get a suit for Carousel. In the evening I think John, Felicia, and I are probably going to do something in the Loop. Probably go to the Tivoli and then find other fun things to do. It should be another fun time. On top of all of that I have Monday off, and Tuesday I leave for L.A. So this weekend and next week should be fun. Friday after I get back from L.A. I have to go down to Rolla for Carousel. I am only a little bit worried about not getting an R.A. positiong. I know I am a good candidate and also that there are not a whole lot of girls that applied so the odds are in my favor. But I am slightly afraid that something will go wrong and I won't get selected. I would be a little hurt since I have done a lot for the Res College and such. So wish me luck. And... I believe that is my life at the moment in a nutshell.

...

right now i am wishing i could know more about my future. maybe not everything that is going to happen but just some select things. like... are chi and i supposed to be together are we going to make it? i know there are some who would say no you are foolish to this question. but, it is possible and i would just like to know. we are kind of at a point now where it has to move in a new direction. a year isn't a really long time but if we wait another year then we will be about 6 months from graduating. if you are in a two and a half year long relationhsip when you graduate and move into the big world that relationship needs to be taken into account. it's hard to think about my future when i don't know who or what is going to be a part of it. the second thing i would like to know is what my job prospects will look like. will i get lots of offers? i would like to think so, but who knows what will happen in the next year or so. these are probably the two biggest parts of my future: my career and my life partner. if i could get those two things figured out i could handle the minor details. too bad life has to be so unpredictable, where is the excitement in that?

Thinking about food makes me want to throw up!

So, I have had some of the best meals on this trip. I have eaten more food in the last three days then I probably eat in a week. On top of all of that I still have two more days of food to go. I have learned when you are eating on someone else's dime price does not matter. I have definitely taken advantage of that. Let me recap some of the delicious things I have tried. Night one I had some delicious chicken, parmesean, and spinach toasted raviolis. Day two for lunch a huge grilled chicken club with the thickest peppercorn bacon I have ever seen. Last night veal parmigiano and a really expensive glass of wine, and tonight baked maccaroni with caramel chocolate mousse cake. Not to mention all of these meals came with delicious salads and sides. Anyway, I am totally going to gain 10 pounds between this trip and next weeks trips. But I think it may be worth it. The only problem I have found so far is that tonight as a was taking a bite of macaroni I thought to myself if I eat one more bite of food I will probably throw up. That feeling lasted for a bit and then I managed to eat a good portion of the previosly mentioned cake. Good thing that didn't last long because I love my food.
I am sure what I have had to eat for the past couple of days is really not to interesting for anyone else but it has definitely been the hilight of my trip, along with my super big hotel room. I feel like I should be on one of those fabulous life shows. I wish life could be like this continuously for the next eight months. But of course then I would be fat and lazy. But I do have a boyfriend so I guess it doesn't really matter what I look like. So, yeah I will take it.

Update from New York

So, here I sit in my GIGANTIC hotel room in Baldwinsville, New York. I am not even joking this place is bigger then my apartment. I have a bed room, a complete kitchen (fridge, cabinets, stovetop, microwave, and dishwasher, plus dishes), a living room, and a bathroom. This place is amazing! Did I mention the king size bed? That's right. Three people could sleep in this bed. I can't even begin to think of what they are paying for me to stay here, I really can't believe the would pay this much, I don't really do jack for the company.
Living Room
Bed Room

Kitchen

So yesterday was traveling day, I got paid for sitting on a plane and reading Harry Potter. I finished book 2 and started book 3. I will also get paid to sleep in and fly home on Friday. I love traveling. I get free lunches and dinners at really delicious restaurants. I get to fly first class where they serve me wine. And my hotel has a free happy hour. I haven't taken advantage of happy hour yet but I think I will run over there later this evening. And to top it all off I should get overtime pay. So this is awesome. I am making more money and spending less because I don't have to buy any food and I am saving money on electricity and water. This is the life.

Besides all the nice stuff work is kind of boring and very tiring. But it's better then sitting in my cubicle for 8 hours. I have two more days of work and then get to spend Friday traveling. And my wonderful boyfriend will be there to pick me up at the airport so that we can spend our first anniversary together. So this weekend will be fun celebrating with Chi. I can't wait to get home!

Free Booze!

I got free alcohol today! 2 free cases of Bacardi Silver O3. For those of you who don't know that equals 48 bottles. So far AB rocks, I love the perks of the job.

Near Death Experience

John's first night in St. Louis, my first late night out with the co-op's. It all started out well. I paid $7 and got trashed. Can't complain about that. Ended up with 1 long island ice tea, and 4 or 5 shots of whatever people kept buying for me. If it is free you can't turn it down. Also ended up "tasting" lots of random drinks. Needless to say lots of alcohol was consumed. John didn't do to bad for himself either. He spent closer to $20 but also ended up getting way more then he paid for. Got to love the AB co-op's, after they get drunk they will buy rounds for everyone. It is going to suck when they get those credit card bills. Needless to say John and I weren't the only ones getting free drinks. Whoelse was you ask... why our DD of course. BRILLIANT! So, long story short John and I found ourselves around midnight sitting on a curb staring at the backside of Busch Stadium. Oh yeah thats right we were in the heart of downtown. We were drunk, had no idea where we really were, and had no designated driver. Not only had the DD gotten as trashed as us but he also dissapeared. So we were sitting on the curb John was contemplating death either by mugging or freezing to death, and I was calling everyone I know in STL except my family trying to find a ride. Through some miracle I called some random number which ended up being the cell phone of another co-op Ben who had been out with some other friends at a coffee bar not far away. I barely know this guy but he saved the day, picked us up and brought us back to the apartment. So, thank you Ben! Sounds like a fun evening, sure. Well the excitement didn't end there. Our DD had my purse in his car with my apartment keys, so I got to hang out with John until I finally got ahold of everyone else and get my keys back. Gave John and I enough time to decide that from now on we are trusting no one else. We are just going to take turns sober driving.

Well John ... welcome to St. Louis. All you guys back in Rolla I am sure you can tell John is in good hands!